转眼又快到MBA第一年的最后一周了

下周考完试，一年的MBA生活就这样谢幕了

回首这一年

感觉自己并没有充分的利用好

很多时候都在徒劳无益的瞎折腾

如果非要给自己打个分

只能说差强人意

何时能够恢复到信心满满

斗志昂扬的状态呢

回首去年此时

对未来充满憧憬

对各种不确定性好奇又紧张

希望奋进去抓获

而如今 身处其身

却有些懈怠与迷失

每个人都看去目标明确

纵身一跃为着未来

我希望我的生活是

温暖 充实 有希望

最近几日又突然有些不着边际的失落

突然感觉自己有些恐慌

不知道未来在哪里

总会担心 一辈子是不是就这样了

虽然下个月就要实习了

还有最后三周就放假了

感觉自己其实荒废了很多时间

有些无所事事的在学校

其实也没有特别用心的在学习

有些课程觉得很无聊

太难的课程驾驭不了

想法很多 执行的很少

还是内心太过不安定

嘴上又太过聒噪

把微信朋友圈内容都删了

准备只留更新的一条

有时候有种表达欲

有时候却又不想表达

总是在纠结中

自我消耗

–Birthday Dinner  03/10/2014

Thanks for all the people who came to my birthday dinner. I felt so glad that you could come to celebrate my birthday. I haven’t celebrate birthday for years. I will become one of my best memories in Anderson.

Also, thanks for the girl who called me to sing “Happy Birthday ”for me. I will remember the moment even maybe we couldn’t be together at the end of the day.  Maybe there is always something and someone in our life that we couldn’t change and keep, even we try our best.

–California Driver License 03/11/2014

Finally I passed my behind the wheel driving test. I got the California Driver License.

–Summer Intern Offer 03/11/2014

Finally I got my official summer intern offer from HP. I will be in Sunnyvale for the summer as the Product Marketing Manager Summer Intern at HP Enterprise Security Product.

Life is getting better and better now.

I should be happier than before.

I will get my MBA degree.

I will find a job in U.S.

I will find my love.

Go Monster!

Just interviewed with Amazon PM Interview for the first round. On Phone.

Two 30min back to back phone interview.

Questions:

-Introduce your self in 60 seconds?

-Why Amazon?

-Do you have a time that use a creative way to solve a problem? Dig in…Dig in…

-Tell me about more/detailed information about XXX.( one bullet point on my resume)…dig in..dig..how, why….

-Do you have a time that  you need to set up a new process? What kind of purse? How? Why?….

Case Questions:

-You are the PM for Amazon App store, now Netflix wants to charge $7 dollars for every user that download the apps on Amazon App store. What would you do?

-You are the PM of a Trader department for Video games.( A second handed video game online market). You have lots of competitions, cloud-based service, rental service, and internal competitions). A company that just release a brand new games. Some of the users want to sell their video game on the platform. How much would you spend in order to acquire the video games?

What kind of information, how do you approach? How do you decide the price?….

Your birthday year starts out magnificently. Jupiter, the giver of gifts and luck, is currently touring Cancer, a fellow water sign like yours, in your house of true love. This means Jupiter will be in an ideal position to help you find lasting romance from now through mid-July 2014. You’ve not had Jupiter’s help on such a grand scale for years. Now that you are the celestial favorite to find love, you must make this period count!

If you meet someone now, you are likely to be well suited to each other, the relationship would have the power to continue for an extremely long time, very possibly forever. You’ve hosted good fortune Jupiter in this position since June 25, 2013 without interruption, so in those past months you may have seen some exciting developments in matters of the heart. If not, more chances will come during the first half of this year. Be willing to be part of this trend by being open to meeting and greeting others, and by expanding your list of “qualifiers” in your ideal mate, too. When Jupiter comes by to visit, he tends to bring a few surprises, so the person you may fall in love with now may be nothing like the ideal you had in your mind, but much better!

You may have already met the love of your life and are dating that person now. In your case, you may have confessed your love and promised exclusivity for each other and may already be engaged or will become engaged or married soon.

If you are feeling left out, here’s what may have been the problem. Jupiter moved into your house of love on June 26, 2013 and was in strong, powerful orbit until November 7, 2013, when Jupiter shut down for a rest, by going retrograde, a weakened state. If you feel that Jupiter has not been helpful to you in the love department, it is likely due to Jupiter’s recent weak orbit since November 7. The good news is that from March 6 to July 16, Jupiter will be moving in a sure, strong, direct pace—and that changes everything. Make a concerted effort to circulate socially during that time and you should be pleased with romantic developments.

If you are seriously committed or married, you may now deepen your love. You may decide to have a baby, or to adopt a child. If you already have children, in this coming year, they will likely make you proud, for they will do well! March through most of July will be among the strongest, happiest months for matters related to love and children. If you have been disappointed by an inability to conceive, do careful research to find the right specialist, and book your appointment with that doctor soon.

This year will also be a banner time for finding your artistic voice and finding an ideal setting for your talents. Your creativity will blossom in exciting ways during the first half of 2014, so make sure you work hard on perfecting your craft from March 6 to July 16, the time Jupiter in Cancer will work hardest for you. Emphasize your strengths, and identify the conditions you need to succeed. You will be offered many projects, but seek assignments that will allow you room to grow and that will lead you directly to where you hope to be, for you are starting a trend that will last many years.

The new assignments you receive and complete in the first half of 2014 may or may not be the highest paying ones you’ve ever been given, but they will be some of the best to establish yourself in a new arena, and for creating a future. As you develop your new body of work, whether for yourself, or for a client, your finances will increase over time—have faith that this will happen. With eclipses in Aries and Libra, it is too soon to see your income rise substantially. Often in life, compensation lags behind a show of talent, but sooner or later, things do equalize.

The series of eclipses in Aries and Libra that will continue to happen in 2014 and 2015 may put a drain on your finances. It may be that a close family member may depend on you for financial support, or that a venture will require more time and money than you anticipated. These are only two of many possible examples.

A trip to a foreign country or to a distant city in your own country may come up for you once Mars enters Scorpio, from July 25 to September 14, 2014. During this period, your very best time to plan a fun vacation would be during the last week of July or in the first week of August. You may decide to travel for business instead of having a purely personal trip at this time, and if so, you’d still enjoy the trip and the new setting you find yourself exploring in the few hours you get of free time.

Keep your eye on the end of 2014 for the most exciting uptick in career success that you’ve seen in over a decade! To put this extraordinary statement in context, you will find that during the first nine months of 2014, your creativity will be lauded and the right assignments will come to you that will allow you to shine.

Once Mars tours Sagittarius for the first time in two years, from September 13 to October 26, 2014, you will see accelerated progress, and you will be viewed by VIPs in a new light. Your career will have grown to a special tipping point where you will be able to aim for the stars.

During the phase from mid-September through most of October 2014, if you have played your cards right (and it seems you have) and you have put in a consistently superb performance, you will be considered for a very high status position, one larger than you’ve ever taken on before. Take career offers seriously in those autumn months, for you will be laying the groundwork for a very big professional future.

Just as Mars leaves your professional sector, the new moon of November 22, 2014 will fall in the same high-status career house as Mars visited earlier. Take note of the conversations that come up and the emails you receive in the days that follow that new moon. Any seeds that you plant at the end of November or very early December will set the pace for the entire year to come.

New moons are fiercely important, for they begin a new trends and open doors. They bring exceptional opportunity too. You need a new moon in your career house, and by George, you will get one, on November 22, 2014. All new moons are powerful in the two weeks that follow it, with the strongest energy beaming in the first days (and then gradually declines as you go further away from the new moon.) The universe is speaking very clearly here—earlier, in mid-September through most of October, you will have important talks about future career opportunities. In December, talks reach an important, serious stage.

After the new moon of November 22 arrives, your workweek will become very busy with phone calls, meetings and so forth. That new moon appears in the same week as the US holiday, Thanksgiving (November 27) but nevertheless, you will see much career activity going on then. It will be vital that you stay close to home during that time so that you can take full advantage of career opportunities that surface then. Keep your computer with you at the end of November if you do travel, and keep your phone powered up too.

Incredibly, there is more career news! Saturn is poised to enter this same sector of your chart–your tenth house of fame and honors–on December 23 for the first time since 1985 and will remain in this house until December 2017. Saturn will get you ready for an important leadership role, and one that comes with considerable responsibility and power. The decisions you make, and the endeavors you launch at year’s end will likely be in your life for at least the coming 14 years, and more likely forever.

Being that the autumn will be very important for professional activity, polish up your resume and have it ready to show no later than early September. You will need to dress as though you’ve already won the big job, so get your wardrobe ready too. This will be an exciting time for you!

过去两月都在折腾各种实习的事情，心情时起时伏，飘忽不定，偶尔还很郁闷沮丧。感觉现实比想象的要困难和残酷的多。找实习也一直不怎么顺利，大多都木有拿到面试机会。偶尔有的面试机会，也无法顺利进入到下一轮。有时候会怀疑感觉自己是否真的不如别人，可是有时候也觉得或许是自己努力的不够，并没有像其他人一样付出很多很多。而要拿到不错的offer，确实需要付出很多的努力，那些面试也不仅仅是sales的口头吹吹就ok的。真的需要一定的面试技巧，而自己在面试方面确实也没有花太多的时间去准备，和研究.

或许水逆真的结束了，本周形势有所好转。之前通过ex-boss推荐的实习机会相对已经敲定。本周飞去SF也将此事落实了下，虽然是口头上应承了说OK，但至少已经让我心安了许多。之前的不安于惶恐终于阶段性的告一段落。虽然后面还有个Amazon的面试以及之前投的公司或许也会有些个面试，但至少自己已经往前跨了一步。希望一切都会慢慢变好吧！

还有三周，本学期就结束了！ 回想这学期，过的还真是有点浑浑噩噩. 心思都用在了实习寻找上面，其他事情都七零八落的不怎么过问. 学习上面也基本没有怎么用心。

安心之后或许可以好点.

相信事情会越来越好的！

I was a little depressed this week as I was struggling to find my MBA summer intern. It seemed that everyone put most of their energy for intern interview, including me. Most of the students, I guess, still hadn’t got the offer yet, except the IB and Consulting guys.

Actually, I got interviews from LinkedIn, Symantec, Visa, NetApp and HP. Linkedin didn’t invite me for the 2nd round for their Business Operations, and Symantec didn’t invite me into the 2nd for their product marketing manager positions.

Monday I interviewed on the phone with NetApp for Product Management Intern;

Wednesday I interviewed with Visa for Global Solutions. ( Parker CMC Video conference interview…a little strange…)

Thursday I interviewed with Symantec for their Information Management PM intern;

Friday I will interview with HP Enterprise Security Product Marketing Intern.

Too tired this week, and I am not sure if all those interview wouldn’t bring me good news, what I gonna to do in the coming months. Maybe will spend more time on off-campus recruiting, but it seems that off-campus it’s hard to find the focus and it’s also hard to measure your effort, I mean ROI of your time. While the good things is that you could always find a startup for summer intern if you don’t care too much about the salary. The bad things is, if you didn’t find a good summer intern, it will still hard to find the full-time offer later this year.

Sometimes I would wonder about my current status, what am I really wanting now? Do I still want to pursue my career goal or I just want to find a summer intern in a big tech company, and don’t care too much about the role or my long-term career development. Facing the challenge of the fierce competition for the summer interns, I, and also most the other students, already give up our original career goals, and all we want at this moment is a confirmed summer intern offer. Then we could move on to study, social or even do some thing else that would be interesting.

For me, I do want to build up some tech skills and know more about startup and entrepreneurial opportunity, but for a safe choice, I would love to do my summer intern in a big tech company. But the summer intern staff seems that distract all my attention.

I don’t think it’s a good status now.

Actually it was my first formal interview for MBA Internship. It was always a tough time for every first time.

My Interviewer is the Senior Director of Business Operations at LinkedIn. The interview process is quite simple.

At first, the interviewer would told you how will we spent the coming 45 minutes, just give you a brief introduction about the interview process.

First, the interviewer introduced himself and the Business Operations team. ( Internal Consulting was his words)

Later, he asked me to go through my resume and asked two or three question about my resume. But the way he asked the question makes me a little confused. Maybe I just get used to the way people ask you about your leadership, teamwork, time management, conflict stories and so on. The interviews questions seemed a little strange, it made me hard to use my stories. I even couldn’t remember the questions.

Then, we moved on to the case questions ,which made me mad, although it was a easy case question. I should know how to break down this easy case question.

You are the VP of the Sales in a five star hotel ( assume Four Season). The CEO comes to you for a solution to improve the occupancy rate of the hotel as the hotel faced a challenge situation that that are not enough people come while the competitor’s occupancy are relative higher.

Last, he gave me chance to ask him about whatever questions I wanted to ask. I raised two or three questions, then time ended.

Frankly speaking, the first round interview was not hard including the case. Maybe it’s my first interview, I felt nervous. I guess I wouldn’t be invited for the second round.

Move on! Hope Next Time, I would do better. 

开学两周，已感觉节奏比上学期要更紧张了.

第一周收到的都是拒信, 于是去Parker CMC哭诉去了。 Regina很给力，几乎安排了每一天和我见面，帮我改cover letter.后来又拉进Qilin, Phil 以及Sally进来帮忙. 之前并没有特别的感受到Parker CMC的给力, 可是这一次真的有些感激, 仅仅是为了让我最后一封给Amazon的cover letter显的质量高一些，尽了很大的力人力来帮忙. 改后的cover letter确实比我自己瞎折腾的好的太多了.

第二周开始收到面试通知, 麦肯锡, LinkedIn, Symantec. 不过最终还是决定不去McK面试了，左思右想, 从天灵盖想到脚底板, 似乎我也不是consulting的人。Consulting也坚决不会是我热爱的工作啊。眼下还是瞄准了Tech公司的职位, 可惜PM亦或者 PMM都很难，我们这种纯sales背景的人在美国找工作还真不容易。最擅长的嘴皮子都被卸去了一半, 其他勉强能撑起台面的估计面试后也就是挂的命了.

下周面LinkedIn, 下下周Symantec. LinkedIn 收到的职位是Business Operations, 有事Consulting扎堆的地方, 不知道这一关过不过得去. 这两天开始看LinkedIN的产品和资料和理解等，希望能够对它多了解一些，能够准备一些问题。 可是或许许久没有认真准备面试了, 上一次还是一年多年的MBA申请，如果把Behavior question的都忘记的差不多了。又要开始新一轮的准备!

说实话，并不太看好Intern 申请的前景。

希望自己能够再次挺过这一关!

It begins again just as several times ago.

It happened when I applied for summer intern when I was in college….

It happened when I applied for the full-time position when I was in college….

It happened when I applied for b-school one year ago…

It happened now…..

But eventually I, and also the other MBA students, will get our own offer……

One year later…..

Some are lucky, they get the return offer from the companies…they don’t need to worry about full-time jobs….

Some are not so lucky, they still need to apply again, and go through all this application process again…..

But eventfully, I hope all of us will get our dream offer for intern and full-time.

By the way, today I received the Not-Invite-letter from Workday and Apple…well….that’s what I wanted to say in my blog…haha……